Look its not that I don't love him. But I am not going to wait for him to make up his mind either. If he doesn't file, then once I am here for 2 years, I will. There is no point in planning on a future with a man who has no brain.
Life is too short to continue to go through this. I have finally found some peace, I have a nice, quiet apartment in a nice, quiet village, and a nice job with a nice law firm working for nice attorneys.
I am content right now.
I am so happy to be able to walk into my own apartment, turn on my own television, eat my own food, sleep in my own bed. I am eternally grateful that my brother left me that life insurance. I miss him more than anyone, but I know he is up there watching over me to make sure I am okay.
My D13 is adjusting so well that I wish I had done this a long time ago.
As for H? I can't do anything. He has to find his own way. I would be lying if I said that I didn't love him, but it would take a awful lot for me to try again. I don't trust him, and I don't think I have it in me to even try to trust him. I don't want to live my life worrying about where his male member is slipping when he is outside of the home...
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
