Consider taking up origami (you can do amazing things with the colored duct tape too ). Anything that will help occupy your mind.
If exercise is something you enjoy (or even if it isn't) do something there. Weightlifting, long walks, whatever floats your boat.
Don't know what that is? Then try something...anything. It will help clear your mind so you can think too. Think community recreation dept (if you have one), inexpensive and (here anyway) lots of choices.
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I am comfortable where I am staying, I do not want to take the kids there, I don't want them to have that memory.
Would you prefer they have the memory that they weren't important enough for you to have them come and stay with you?
). Anything that will help occupy your mind. 
