I made a mistake yesterday and need to note it here for future reference. I stopped by my wife's work to check on how she was feeling (read this thread - she is ill) since I was right across the street. While there I commented on how good she looked and also did so later during a brief textversation. Her response via text - "oh well". I realized it made her angry, since her body may have looked great, but that's it, since she her face shows her illness. As I mentioned before, she has an issue with me wanting her just for her body at the best of times. So..note to self - STOP MAKING COMMENTS THAT COULD BE TAKEN AS SEXUAL, NOT SIMPLY COMPLIMENTARY.
Today marks 4 weeks since I returned to this site. I don't think my dbing is going as well as it did 4 years ago, but it's still early and I have time on my side. Today, I am going to do some reading of other books mentioned here, re-read some of DB and DR and do a complete evaluation of how I am doing working on me.
If I look at the overall picture, things aren't too bad. We are being civil and living in the same house. I am sleeping in our bed and I am physically better than I have been in some time. I don't have that inner peace I managed to find last time, but will work on it.
Still looking to reach 3 goals in regards to relationship with wife;
1. A touch from her as she walks by - just a simply expression of feeling.
2. The good bye hug that is customary when she leaves home in the morning before I do.
3. Be invited to run an errand with her. Being part of a simple daily task would be a stepping stone. Being asked to go grocery shopping with her would be the ideal. There is an explanation, but not needed.
