Update: H is away for a few days for work. He called yesterday morning to talk to the boys, we talked for a few minutes.. he asked how the boys were the night before, I told him that we went out to dinner with J and his son. J is our neighbor, and a good friend of my H, although since H moved out, I would say J is my friend as well. He is a single dad, so we have alot to talk about, and our boys play together all the time. I could tell there was a litle jealousy in his voice.. he said "oh, like a date?".. i dont think he really thought it was a date. (it wasnt at all!) but for him to say it, he must have been a little surprised that we went out together. Don't think he realized how much we hang out, but latey he is noticing. J does things for me around the house sometimes (so does my dad), and I think H feels guilt when he hears about it, because he knows he should be doing it.
This morning, he called again. Left a message saying that he was trying to talk to the boys before school, and if they were still home, to call him... 'or even if they are not'.. I had my 4yo call him back..they talked for a bit, and then H asked to talk to me. Again, just a little chit chat.. he talked about his lawyer a bit, said he got a letter from him verifying that he is going to stop everything until he hears from him. He asked if I've been in touch with the realtor. He asked a couple of times if I was ok. He could tell I wasnt. I was just being really quiet. Wasnt really sure how to act I guess. Of course I start to tear up. Tried hard to hide it. He said "are you sure you are ok? Did my lawyer do something else?" I said "I can't talk now. I need to go" He said "ok, email me if theres something you need to say" "I'm sorry.. " He used my name after he said he was sorry, hasnt done that in a while. Actually, I think when we had our talk last week, he called me honey and babe a few times. Probably just a slip up.

So, what do I do? Should I send that email, and tell him that his is not my friend? He really does think that we can be this one big happy non-family now.


Me: 36
H: 33
S1: 4
S2: 2
Together: 13 years
Married: 7 years
Bomb: May 09
Found out about affair: June 09
Moved out: June 09
He Filed: July 09
Moved in with OW: July 09