until tonight, having a little backslide, panicking. so many things i don't know. does she think of herself as single, for example? that would really bother me.
Start thinking of yourself as single. Changing this mindset helps you to release from the grips of your marriage, which we need to do right now. Some would suggest dating, I wouldn't. I am going to live within my convictions, but am not going to torment myself for the sake of my W.
Originally Posted By: ryepatch
i feel like i've been so patient and my patience isn't getting rewarded
Read "No more Mr. Nice Guy". Don't be patient because you want to be rewarded. Be patient because you have compassion for your W who may be sick right now. And you understand that she may not be herself. However, you are being patient because you love her; not because you need to be rewarded for it. You will have a limit on your patience. When that patience runs out, you should be able to move on with your life without resentment toward her. If you look to be rewarded, then the resentment will set in if it doesn't work out the way you expect.
Originally Posted By: ryepatch
i am so in love. . . i don't know if i'm happily married or an idiot.
I hear ya.