Devastated. I did not realize how much I was still counting on us being together. Never really can comprehend a future of us not being a family.
Just don't understand how he can tell me that God doesn't want us to divorce, just 4 days ago! Did he get a call from God that I don't know about since then?
How he can say in the letter that he wants to see his kids every day and being away from them kills him. Well what does he think divorce IS???
We talked about going to the retreat to recreate a spark, to re-establish intimacy. I am not surprised that he does not feel a closeness to me anymore. He spent more than 2 years trying to kill any feelings he had for me.
So that is natural. That was the whole reason for the retreat. He had to end it with Stephanie, then from the rubble that was us we go see if we can rebuild. I just don't understand how we can be SOOOOOO close to having everything and then have nothing.
