My H disappears and yells at me for all the things HE IS DOING. H yells about the house - he does nothing, doesn't lift one finger even when he is here with S. H yells about how I slept with someone a long time ago - he is out doing that. H yells about my volitility, which I have completely eliminated, and he is the one blowing up every day. H yells about how he is not coming back because he doesn't trust my changes are real - he's not changing at all. H yells about how we never looked at "the real issues" yet refuses to go to therapy and deal with the real issues.
I'm not detached tonight. I'm really upset and panicking and thinking of giving this all up again.
