Still Wondering How To Handle Things!!

[mishka422]

It would be so much easier if I didnt like the man!!

Oh, I understand completely. There are so many things about my XH that I like, so many shared jokes and memories, but they are all overshadowed with ugliness now. Realizing that he isn't going to change and doesn't even want to that pushed me forward.

And no matter what he has done to me, I still dont enjoy hurting him....

But it's not about you hurting him. He did the damage. He hurt you time and time again, continues to try to remotely control and manipulate your life (questioning who you are even talking to!) but you're still willing to entertain that he could redeem himself. Begging? Oh, you can bet he'd do that. He can't have his backup plan disrupted. The question remains....how long are you willing to be the second choice?