Well, I'm either misinterpreting, which I don't think I am, or she's now lying to my face - talking about how she's trying to be respectful, all affirmitive about how she's keeping her word. She says that if she were in my shoes, she would be suspicious too. That I don't trust her anymore, and she probably wouldn't either. Then she short of changed tone and said that it's not her job to make me feel OK with everything.
She says she needs these weekends away to get a break, she she can sleep and not feel sick and have headaches.
Says it's hard being around me because it makes her feel anxious.
She she's got a lot of feelings about this Retro weekend that she needs to talk to her friend about (the one she says she's going to see). Apparently this is causing a lot of anxiety for her.
She also said that she's really scared about what this looks like on the other side. That I'm doing so much now, but she shouldn't stay just because I'm washing dishes.
Not sure what else to say. Not optimistic. I'm really starting to internalize that she's just not my wife. Starting to see her differently.
I actually feel a little more intact right now than I have been. Like I don't need her as much... hopefully I can hold on to that.
