Well we talked. I cant really say all we said. He said the reason we are here now, is the affair. Straight forward. He said anything else was a poor excuse. He made things up as excuses to justify himself and gaslight me. He said he obviously put himself out there to get into an affair. He doesnt know exactly how it happened but it did and he is to blame for it. He fell in love and things escalated.
He said his actions are actions he is ashamed for and feels humiliated for doing. When I told him I kind of think we cant make it and dont want to try he asked me why. I tried to explain, probably confused him but did cry when I talked about the time he was here while hoping he was somewhere else. I told him that I am having a hard time thinking of being with someone I really dont respect as a human being although I dont doubt his intentions were not always bad. He was quiet.
I told him that what he said that he will not "expose" himself to such an "opportunity" again because he wont need to, because he wasnt happy, because he was miserable were all wrong answers to me. I told him "in your shoes, I would say to my wife that I had made a terrible mistake and that I loved her and I never want to hurt her again or risk loosing her and that's why there is no way this will happen again". He stunned me by saying he did say that in his words in his letter. Why didnt I read that? Maybe a man-woman thing? Who knows? Still not what I need.
He said he would do all he can to make me trust him if I would only be willing to be made to trust him. If I would give him a chance.
I asked him if he would tell me if she had contacted him or if he would be willing to show me cell records for example. He said "what if she came to me and I had told her again it is over, why would you want to know that?" I explained the theory of walls and windows for those of you familiar. He said he would tell me and he would provide his cell records.
It was more but nothing really big. I repeated to him I dont think I can try but I am going to sleep on it some more. K
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Both my kids have lice for the first time, YEAH!!!! Lucky mom!
