Truth is, I get flustered deep down when we spend family time together. I struggle as we all do with letting it be and not grasping, manipulating, jumping the gun. I am actually very impressed that I can juggle so many balls at once with him.
I'm serious when I say I'm impressed. I'm not just feeding you bs. My sitch is ridiculously simple and I can't make it 24 hours without botching it.
Originally Posted By: aliveandkicking
Ultimately...I need to figure out what I'm going to do now. School? Work? Which path...that is what I need to focus on.
OK. I'm actually excited about these options. When you brought up the need to tackle this the other day I was feeling it like a burden or something to put off. Like it was somehow in conflict with other things you're doing. Duh, it's not. You need this...it's a exciting.
AKA: "Ben the school teacher" --- Me:45, W:41 | Ds:10,12&14 | M:18, T:20 Me: MLC+PA+WAS+Separated 10/08 My Request to Reconcile Denied 7/09 W w/OM 6/09-11/09
OK. I'm actually excited about these options. When you brought up the need to tackle this the other day I was feeling it like a burden or something to put off. Like it was somehow in conflict with other things you're doing. Duh, it's not. You need this...it's a exciting.
Well, I'm glad you're excited! I am too but I don't do well with too many options and it is wiiiiiide open. A blessing and a curse.
I'm serious when I say I'm impressed. I'm not just feeding you bs. My sitch is ridiculously simple and I can't make it 24 hours without botching it.
Thanks. I appreciate it. It has been monumentally difficult. There is no way but straight through. This is what life is about. As for your self-deprecating comments, enough. You'll make it. It is impossible until you have the lightbulb moment and I think you may have had it today. Raise your expectations of yourself. If I can do it, you can.
Fo real...I just emailed H specifics about kid pick up tomorrow (his day) and he emailed and said he's really sick and hopes he's better then.
He f*cking posted a picture of that chick he was out with today on FB where he knew I would see it and now he's going to be "too sick"...
ROFL
I need to coach him a bit. Seems like he's working with a limited playbook here.
AKA: "Ben the school teacher" --- Me:45, W:41 | Ds:10,12&14 | M:18, T:20 Me: MLC+PA+WAS+Separated 10/08 My Request to Reconcile Denied 7/09 W w/OM 6/09-11/09
Oh, he can dig himself into his own hole just fine, I think.
LOL...Imagine the whole the two of us could dig together ;-)
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AKA: "Ben the school teacher" --- Me:45, W:41 | Ds:10,12&14 | M:18, T:20 Me: MLC+PA+WAS+Separated 10/08 My Request to Reconcile Denied 7/09 W w/OM 6/09-11/09
Sometimes you just need one ear and not many for feedback or to share a laugh.
Bummer if it is:( I couldn't figure out how to do it.
AKA: "Ben the school teacher" --- Me:45, W:41 | Ds:10,12&14 | M:18, T:20 Me: MLC+PA+WAS+Separated 10/08 My Request to Reconcile Denied 7/09 W w/OM 6/09-11/09
I am too but I don't do well with too many options and it is wiiiiiide open. A blessing and a curse.