Hoping WAW will someday see through the fog....

[shellshockedga]

Mishka, thank you for the answers. Tomorrow I meet with the L to help me digest all of this. More on that later.

Today was interesting to say the least. When I woke up this morning and went to the breakfast table I noticed my W had clearly been up all night crying. Wow, join the crowd. First time I have seen that from her. As you all know she wants a D and thinks that there is no other option. To quote her from today "I just don't want to be married to you anymore."

So I gave her an alternative approach to D which would include her leaving the house with the children for an apartment for the next 9 months - sort of a trial separation. See how things go. See if she likes it. I would stay in our house. And if appropriate, put it up for sale.

Well, that failed miserably, and I guess I was not surprised. I didn't push it, only offered it up as a possibility.

She said she did not want the children to have to leave the house and that I was hurting them by even suggesting it. Now, who wants to get a D?????? I guess that is her way of coping, trying to put the blame on me rather than accept what she is doing.

Sh finally stated that we could get a divorce and continue to live in the house together. No need to even tell the children. Have you all ever heard of that before? Sounds crazy to me.

Her other suggestion was that we get an apartment and each of us would live in it for a week at a time and then swap to the house. Thereby allowing the kids to continue to live in the same home. Sounds like this would be an absolute mess to me. 7 years of this??? I don't think that will work. Has anyone done this???

So she is starting to get the idea that financially this isn't going to be easy. Unfortunately in GA she can go file for $87.00. Of course there is a huge sea between filing and the D. She doesn't get how much that costs and that I am not paying for it out of family funds.

This afternoon, I began to feel this calm come over me. I am not sure if that is a sign of subtle detachment or acceptance of the reality of my sitch, but at least for a few hours, it was nice.

From here on in it is time for her to, as GIMA would say "put on the big girl panties" and see what this will all be about. Sad, but necessary.

I know this has been long, but I needed to download a lot from today. Helps to clear the mind and soul. I hope she doesn't go through with this, but feel as though she is destined to do it. Maybe I will be one of those lucky ones whose S comes back after they realize their mistake. Or maybe I will realize that there are more and better fish in the sea....

More tomorrow after the visit to the L.