You are not listening to a damned word anyone is saying to you.

Get a grip ...please!!!

You are your own worst enemy right now.

I understand about the ADHD and the meds and the anxiety but if you do not sit on your hands and put some duct tape on your mouth you will blow what ever chance you have with your marriage.

Get yourself under control, change your meds or check yourself into a hospital.

Honestly, this is totally nuts.

There can be no testimony without a test.
I am praying to go through this test and come out the other end with a new and better marriage then before.