WEll, Mishka...I guess Im just afraid of making the decision myself, because I do still question it. And no matter what he has done to me, I still dont enjoy hurting him....and maybe thats what Im afraid of too. Its just a battle in my head right now.

My heart is telling me to wait it out, but my head is saying something very different...and I know the heart is a decietful thing! But, Im not sure what I would do if I went forward with it and he did everything he could to get me back, from begging to who knows?? I have to be prepared for that you know?

I guess this is where Im being like my H, I want him to make the choice and not me! It would be so much easier if I didnt like the man!! lol

Kissak

"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3
M-37 H-37
S-10, D-15
M- 1993
First bomb- 12/23/06
Came and went too MANY times!
Gone again 10-25-10