I often wish I had someone in Real Life I knew who had experienced/was experiencing the whole MLC thing, but I don't know of anyone. Do you think you would get a chance to talk to the woman you heard at the luncheon?
It's great that the motorcycle club is so welcoming of you and you can still go to meetings and out with them! And a little male attention after nothing for so long is a good thing, I think.
I got a call from my attorney today... She told me that H called her. He told her he filed a response to my response( that I filed in December) in the court. * I knew that locking briefcase was out for a reason. Today I noticed it was not in the office any longer but back in his bedroom. My attorney said she can't believe this man doesn't have his own attorney that he is doing this himself. She also asked him if there was a chance of reconciliation and he said NO! She asked him if he has talked to me about the D and he told her I wouldn't talk to him. I then told her he has never approached me to talk about anything except for the eight page projection letter. She said she would like a copy of that letter, but I really don't want her to have a copy. She said he was stopping by her office today to give her a copy of what he filed with the courts. He still probably doesn't want me to have anything much. After that projection letter, I'm even more sure I want everything I'm entitled to. He is such a schmoozer, he will probably try to really schmooze her over.
I am good. I am strong. I'm not really falling apart like I had in the past. It's amazing how far GOD has brought me. If H asks me if my attorney said anything to me, or if he knows attorney told me and asks about it, I'm not going to get in a R talk. I'll just tell him my heart goes out to him.
Last night we had dinner together, and he made us dessert. He even told me dinner was very good tonight. Just when I see signs of old H, WHAM I fall down from that rug being pulled out from under my feet. I want so much to tell him how I feel about this MLC of his and what this has done to my life. I won't though. As I have read that this just makes him worse.
I was really hoping he would come out of this tunnel before this D happens. Skank must really be pushing him hard lately. I will not waver, I am still going to stand strong.
H came home tonight and asked me if I wanted a drink. I said no, then he came into the livingroom where I was watching TV. He asked if he could talk to me and I said sure. He then proceeded to tell me that he talked with my attorney today. He said she told him to sit down with me and talk about the terms of the D. I then asked him why he went to my attorney and he said that's what I'm supposed to do. I then said you should get your own attorney, because I pay good money for her to represent me. He said she is representing you, but she thinks the three of us should sit down together. I had no reply. Then he said well that's it then? I said what I have been going to say all along... " My heart goes out to you." He asked again, I replied in the same way. He then said "Thank you, I appreciate that." Nothing more was said about it after that. He continued to sit in the livingroom with me, watched a movie, played with the dogs, and ate dessert. Then he went to bed early. He is snoring away as I write this.
He's crazy! I hate him! No I don't! Well, maybe just a little.
I think I'll sit on the curb and watch the parade go by. Anyone want to join me! Orchid? Faith? Serenity? Maybe you'll see someone in the parade that looks familiar to you also! We can wave the MLC banner as they march by!
So sorry about all the lawyer stuff and D talk again. It really does make you wonder if OW is pushing him since it didn't seem from your posts like there had been any action for a long time. I know it is discouraging but it ain't over til it's over (and even then it may not be) and we know that God is in control and can rest in that with whatever happens.
It sure does seem like there is a lot of that MLC confusion (have you thought of posting in MLC?) - it is so strange to me tht he will write you a letter, be seeking a D, says there is no chance of reconciliation yet he seems to be home a lot and in spite of what he says about being uncomfortable being in the same house, it sure doesn't keep him away!
Sigh. I know this is all so hard. I'll join you on the curb to watch the parade go by. Should we throw candy (or something) at them???
BTW - I know exactly what you mean about hating him, yes you do, no you don't. I have moments where I honestly feel like I hate my H but then realize deep down I don't, just hate the behaviors and the fact that we are here. And sometimes that is WAAAAAY deep down. They say the opposite of love isn't hate, it is indifference so I guess it is good I don't feel indifferent.
Hope your day today was better. Remember - the joy of the Lord is your strength! You are in my prayers.
Even if it is just to sit in silence and watch a parade
My feelings have been all over the place as well so I do know what you are talking about when you say you hate him, then you don't, maybe just a little etc...
((((Hugs)))) my friend
You know where I am if you want to talk
May All Who Seek To Take My Life Be Put To Shame And Confusion; May All Who Desire My Ruin Be Turned Back In Disgrace. ~Psalm 40:14~
I stayed home from school today. I needed to regroup and figured I wouldn't do my students any good in class today.
I noticed his infamous locking briefcase is gone. I wonder what he has in store for me today.
He will probably tell my attorney that I would not talk terms of D with him last night. I hope she doesn't get upset with me because I wouldn't. It would have led to confrontation and I didn't want that. Especially since we are still in the same house.
So, shall we throw candy to them or at them? Or throw something else?
I have a visual... we can walk in front of them holding up the MLC banner while they follow behind us reading their manuals.
I understand about staying home - There are still days I don't want to get out of bed lol
I am proud of you - Knowing that the talk he wanted would have lead to confrontation - You chose to be the bigger person and walk away without engaging...Well done!
Throw candy huh? As long as it is something like mega-jawbreakers I am in LOL
May All Who Seek To Take My Life Be Put To Shame And Confusion; May All Who Desire My Ruin Be Turned Back In Disgrace. ~Psalm 40:14~
They say the opposite of love isn't hate, it is indifference so I guess it is good I don't feel indifferent.
