Trust? I dont know lodo. Cheater once always a cheater? I dont believe that. If you look at the reasons why and you identify the pattern. I have never cheated on anyone of my partners, but I could sure see how it happens and when/if I would feel attracted to someone's personality (that always does it for me), I could feel the tension and quickly retreat so that the other person would not get the wrong idea. Ever since I met stbxH, I think my commitment to him was so visible, noone ever could come close to me thinking they had a chance. Cause the didnt.
That among others changed last year. OK, we were separated to be divorced but my heart wasnt any longer his. To me, that meant a lot.
I am not really considering reconciling with H. Not out of fear. In a book it said, dont enter again in the R if you think that it if ever happens again (the cheating) you would no longer be able to heal in the future. I could heal. I could live my life well, but that by definition would mean I would never have given myself completely to him. I would always keep a part of me, to myself. My core self, my soul maybe?
I dont know what stbxH intents to do. I mean after my reasoning why I cant do it. I dont think he will do much. And that will be again very telling I have made the right choice. K
