Hang in there, Sweetie. Your h will not change. Please know that you are not crazy, your h is. He will try anything to drag you back down in the mud.
Don't feel the least bit bad about getting healthy. In fact, I would just tell that C that you never liked the lifestyle, you only did it to please h, it disgusts you, makes you feel like dirt, you will never do it again, and that is that! No more discussion, there in nothing to discuss. END OF STORY!!
And Bunny, I think you know that your h will never change because swinging is a core value of his. It is too ingrained and he will not stop bullying you.
His core values were never the same as yours, so you must get away from him. Please, just move out.
Just like a lousy alky, he will get progressively worse. An alcoholic should be kicked to the curb, and so should your h.
You have no reason to feel bad, you are trying to save your own sanity.
