Dreams of a New Normal...

[RedSoxFan]

I don't think my H forms truly close attachments to people. It can look like it sometimes, but events like I've just seen show otherwise.

My H does not have genuine pride in himself in so many ways, certainly not as a husband and a father. His actions don't merit it. I think he is very dependent on the outside applause to keep him feeling okay. In a marriage, inevitably, there will be some behavior you don't applaud, and that's when the trouble starts.

Man, that is painful to read. Sucks to be them.

I think my H craves the stability and security of being married and having a home. It's something he never really had. I don't know if my H will eventually want to come home. If he does, I think gucci is right - people need a crisis to make major changes. That's one of many reasons I won't be here.

Brutal reality. Same in my sitch. Sad.

Makes me wonder sometimes what this stuff is all about. I think some of the above kind of describes where I come from. Not all but some. I want to change, I want to overcome but it's so hard. I'm realizing more and more how much the tools I have to manage life define what I am capable of. That doesn't mean I can't change or acquire new tools but just getting to the point of understanding is so so hard. Then making the changes, well, here I am and we see how that's going. Anyway, it's tough to be on either end of this stuff.