I think I could soften it a bit. The not engaging part worked, though. Mostly because, H is a talker (not about anything personal thought) and so am I, so if I'm not engaging him, it's odd. I know I probably looked sad, so he was chasing me down to see if I was ok. You see, I know he doesn't want me sad, but, apparently, he doesn't want me happy either! If I'm the same ol' W, doing what he needs and wants for the home and kids, then all is good w/him! But, if he sees me a bit sad, he tries to change it, but not make me happy.
Does that make sense?
Well, word to the H, I'm NOT happy (in regards to us). I have a great, fulfilling life in so many ways, but HE has created this void in my heart. I say HE now, because I feel like I've done everything I can to help this situation. How about some forgiveness for my apologies and sincere efforts, and move on, OR NOT!?
Staying together for the kids, and me "behaving" and not stirring the pot is totally working for him.
God! Blech.
Me-46, D-21, S15, S13
After many years w/my head in the sand... I FILED Divorced 6/2011
The average woman would rather have beauty than brains, because the average man can see better than he can think.
