Oh, my bad. No, no fight with H. He seems a little moody, but I think he's annoyed because I'm sick. Always has hated it if I was sick. Whatevs on that. Or his parents are driving him crazy, or he misses booze, or he looked at porn again...see there's a million things it could be, so I'm going to ignore it.
Those comments were from me looking at some of the Piecing threads and there is a lot of extreme anger at some unfaithful spouses. I get that. I would probably be the same way. But I don't think that's going to be a good support spot for me. I'm not going to grovel for strangers' understanding of my own A. That I regret, have made peace with God on, and it's just not good for my progress to hear extreme putdowns of anyone who's made that very terrible mistake.
You're funny. And it's been confirmed...his parents are driving him crazy. Noooobody ever does anything for them, blah blah blah. Sounds so familiar!! Anyway, he's back on track. I said just tell them what they want to hear and forget about it.
You're funny. And it's been confirmed...his parents are driving him crazy. Noooobody ever does anything for them, blah blah blah. Sounds so familiar!! Anyway, he's back on track. I said just tell them what they want to hear and forget about it.
teach him about boundaries and how they will help him deal with his parents.
M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12 Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.
You're funny. And it's been confirmed...his parents are driving him crazy. Noooobody ever does anything for them, blah blah blah. Sounds so familiar!! Anyway, he's back on track. I said just tell them what they want to hear and forget about it.
teach him about boundaries and how they will help him deal with his parents.
I'm hearing the theme music to Mission Impossible right now. lol
Well I'm tired and ready for bed...for some reason I've felt a lot of conflicting emotions tonight...I find myself getting off the fence I think and being committed to sticking this out, and yet that realization made me cry some. Because I know it's still going to be pretty hard. I guess things would be pretty hard no matter which path I choose. I somehow feel like a door is closing though, and I'm giving away the last hope for freedom. I hope I'm making the right decision. I feel like it is, but I still feel the tears.
A nice moment to tell about, when we went out on my birthday, I'd invited him to come with me to get some new art supplies for a project i want to do. He seemed to be happy to be invited. that was a big change for me, because I've set out to do those things, me things, on my own. But I asked him to come. I remembered why I don't when we first got there though, because he tried to get me to change what kind of brushes I wanted even after I explained why I chose them. Then he went and got an employee who, I swear, told him word for word the same thing I said about the brushes. So then he agreed. But the nice thing was I was explaining to the guy that I was a complete novice and I really didn't need anything special because it was for fun and I wasn't talented or anything, and my H said to him with sincerity, she's a really good artist, she just doesn't know it. I almost fell over!
The rest of the evening was fine, he wanted me to be happy. Then there was a crazy fight with S12 but he made it up at the end.
I'm tired. I hope I sleep well tonight. I know this alcohol thing isn't over. He's creeping back into drinking more, which I knew was going to happen. But he's NOT driving around. I guess I have to stick to the AA mantra One Day At A Time. I've spent time with my sponsor lately, and I get a lot of counsel from a recovered alcoholic guy I'm friends with.
