A great deal of what you say is absolutely on target. We have to say what we want (we just have to be smart enough to know when and how to say it).
I have asked myself a million times if I was 'selling my soul' (as you put it) just to get him back....I think I will continue to wonder about that for awhile to be honest.
And you're also right that we have bent like willows in the wind for their benefit and the time must come that we stand as tall as an oak and sway no more. I'm no longer a willow, but I'm not a mighty oak yet either.
I'm feeling my way through this landmine of betrayal. Sometimes I step on the land mines...some times I manage to step over them.
I have worked my way through the land mine you currently find yourself in, the Trigger/Flashback nightmare, and I know how wretched that road is. But you can get off it. With time and practice.
Please feel free to come and rant and vent away anytime you'd like. T2
