Last night H confirmed tonight's MC appt. He then followed up with his observations of last week's session, which were unsolicited by me. Here's the gist of the conversation-
1) Main observation: You distorted reality.
Huh? What do you mean, H?
Do you really believe what you said?
Can you be specific as to what I distorted?
You put on a show for the counselor. It was like you memorized key talking points and buzz words. You appeared like you had been coached on what to say. That wasn't the real you. You presented yourself up here, at this level, (gesturing at eye level), when your everyday self operates down here (gestures at chest level)
So I distorted reality by how well I presented myself???
Yes, that wasn't the real you.
He's not disputing the facts and concerns that I presented, he's disputing how I presented them!!! WTH!!! Gee, wouldn't 6 months of IC and reflection help me organize my thoughts?
2) We got into the topic of "medication". I think you're refusing it because you see a stigma to it or see it as a personal failing and/or just to spite me because it was my idea. And again, who knows you better than me?
Umm- me. I do. I know myself.
3) You indicated you have trouble talking to me because I have "anger issues" when the truth is you have trouble talking to everybody, not just me
No, I do have trouble talking to you when you're angry or moody.
No, it's everybody
He's an @ss. I can't wait to see how this session turns out. I guess I didn't play my anticipated role of scared deer in the headlights last time, and I really don't intend to this time either.
