I don't have much to say. W and I met yesterday for an hour with IC for oldest daughter. Meeting was cordial and productive. Lots of tension and anger in the air between W and I. Got in our cars after and left. No discussions of any R issues.
The more I look at my situation and listen to feedback the more I'm moving toward pulling out for W's sake. The evidence seems to point at an irreconcilable situation given the mistakes I've made.
It's a little sad because no one here really knows the whole situation. I've gone out of my way to make sure I represent her in the best possible light. Anyway, I made the biggest mistake so I own the whole ball of wax. I need to just suck it up and take responsibility for that.
Maybe my moral compass is off or I have a character flaw but it just seems that I am never worthy of forgiveness.
AKA: "Ben the school teacher" --- Me:45, W:41 | Ds:10,12&14 | M:18, T:20 Me: MLC+PA+WAS+Separated 10/08 My Request to Reconcile Denied 7/09 W w/OM 6/09-11/09
