I also forgot to say that I told H quite clearly that there was no place for him to be swearing, shouting or name calling. He agreed.
So bottom line I guess is that I have blown nc!!
Do I want to settle? I am probably ready but I have a fear about finances so I need to face it and get it over with. I am probably having difficulty with facing the fact that it's all over but with or without financial settlement it's all over anyway. I'll sleep on it!