Naughty S! on sunday when he phoned to say he was on his way back, he asked what I'd be doing all weekend, riding madam and out to dinner with friends, he laughed and told me I was being shifty and that he'd seen H's name on the calendar, anyway I pffed him off and said I'd probably be in bed as I was tired.
Last night we sat eating chips and humous whilst waiting for dinner to finish cooking and again, so what did you do? Did you see dad? Yes we had a pleasant evening, anyway he kept trying to dig out info but I kept giggling and not giving any, upshot was he asked would I go to live with H if he asked me.. I answered "dont think it was going in any reconciling direction" Wonder if that will get back to H lol! But it got me thinking and I dont think H would like my answer. Hell no way I love it up here, Im a country girl at heart not a townie and I really couldnt go back, on top of the fact its my friends here who have made all this more bearable, unlike H who has made my life hell instead of talking to me about his feelings!
My feelings are all in a bit of a turmoil today, I really love the guy but its made me realise that I want my own life as much as he wants his and to get that is going to take a lot of negotiation, if he is to believed he has been allowing me to have my own way for years, when I thought we were making joint decisions we wernt. Anyway enough of that nonsense he hasnt made contact since his last txt, although that was at 9am so I must have been on his mind first thing! Think Im having trouble nailing my expectations ladies need some advice/boot up the bum!
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Once lost but now found and happily married again!
