wife left, wants divorce, possibly bipolar

[ryepatch]

so, saw my therapist again today, he says he's 90% sure my W has a mood disorder of some kind. . . thinks she wants to come home someday in the back of her head, that's she's probably still blaming her moods on me even though we haven't been in contact but that that won't last forever.

i'm starting to do a little better, the antidepressants have kind of stopped the bleeding. i'm starting to accept that i've gotta take small steps and treat my mind like a broken leg, not push myself too hard. i'm going to assume she's coming back, but not til christmas and there won't be any good signs til almost thanksgiving. that gives me a time frame to get my head together, hopefully get a job, make friends which is starting to work a little.

i'm going to stop even thinking about the big stuff, and try to stop worrying. this NC is good, even though it's bad. i have to get myself ready for whatever happens when we do start talking again, whether it's about D or R or just the weather.

anyone have any ideas why she might not be contacting me, or going ahead with the D?