I have my plan, I'll change the things that need to be changed, the things that deep,deep down you know are your faults and they make you as a person feel guilty, but no I am not changing my self for someone else.Because some faults to someone else are my gifts.

I just want to be a better me. And yes I need some advice,because I usually do not think before I react. or type for that matter. You guys have no idea how long these posts really could've been,almost turned it into a journal.

I am just desperate like others to be with kids, have some of the good old days, and just plain worried about someone that meant more to them than most anything in the world.

We know what we're made of or we wouldn't be here,there's no quitters on this forum. And fair warning frustration can make you want to quit. But all the signs are pointing in the right direction.

Just keep pointing me in the right direction. Thanks.