T2, I'm in need of a lesson in keeping mouth shut 101. I got anxious and thought he was ready to move forward faster than he really was and he's pulled back. Is there one person on this whole entire BB that hasn't happened to? T2, was both bombs the same W? Tell me how you kept it going between you but didn't push too much. They really do want us to hate them I think. They think it's easier and safer that way for them so they don't have to face every day of their lives realizing they hurt this person that stood by them through it all. The thing with our S is eating at him I know. He does know he's no longer the role model he was, so he really doesn't try to live up to it anymore. What's the use? In his eyes the damage has been done. I sometimes want to walk away to get away from all the pain, but it would still be there. Something in me won't give up. I think that kind of staying power has alot to to do with them trying to get the feelings back again. T2, tell me what you've been doing all this time that led up to now and him wanting to move back. I feel I'm doing the right things by keeping in contact, and acting as if it will be alright between us. I just have to learn to harness this ambition to get back to status quo at break neck speed. When he was leaving our D's tonight, I asked him if he wanted me (ok,I'm blunt) and he said mmmmm, maybe. As much as I've wanted to break his neck for his latest actions, I decided what would bring me closer to what I wanted was to be sweet, and just go back to the way things were. NO R talks, no pressure. Gee,it really is all about him isn't it???? T2.....tell all please! Rachael
