Had a long, tearful convo with him today- he called me out on avoiding conversation with him and I explained that though I care about him it was hard for me to talk to him because I am not detached. We both talked about how we miss eachother but that we probably have a better shot at happiness in the long run if not together. I just miss him so much it makes me ill, and when I think of either one of us being with someone else I want to throw up. He still says he wants to be with me and holds me as the one who walked away and rejected him. It doesn't make things easier that I am starting my 2nd year of grad school this week and constantly feel like I have to act normal around people.
