WAW - Very confused and devastated - pt 11

[confusedinpa]

It was an extremely quiet day - no text, emails or anything.

Around when I normally talk to the boys she called - she said she had been trying for the last hour to get the netbook working but it wouldn't log on. I asked if it would be possible to get a network cable and just plug it in since it seems to be a problem with her wireless. She said she doesn't want a cable hanging around. Then I offered to pay to have the geek squad come out to fix the problem. She said she would think about it.

Then she got into how she had helped me so much this past year but now I won't help her. I just stopped her and said "Please, things have really changed 6 weeks ago. So, if the roles were reversed and I cheated on you, how would you feel about it. Right now I'm still digesting it all right now and trying to figure out what I am going to do". She said she thought I was just avoiding telling her about things just to make her wait. I told her that with all that is going on, these are not simple things to decide. I hope she can respect that it is hard to decide about these things related to her with all this crap going on.

Before I let her go on anymore, I asked to speak to the boys. After I was done talking with the boys, I just hung up.

I'm just shaking my head with utter disbelief how her WAW mind works.

This is reinforcing my belief that she had been doing "nice" things for me just to butter me up for asking for things.....

Again, I'm back to waiting and figuring out the stuff that's going on in me. I've done all I can to save this marriage. The next move is up to her. At that point, I'll decide what I want to do about us. Right now, I'm focusing on me and the boys.....