T2~ I LOVE the positives!!!!! I think it is great that you are focusing on what is GOOD about the sitch!!!!!!!!
Happiness is like a butterfly: the more you chase it, the more it will elude you, but if you turn your attention to other things, it will come and sit softly on your shoulder.... (thoreau)
Now it's my turn to vent! I'm so mad and frustrated with my H. He says he doesn't want to spend the night here at the house, and I asked him if it was because he didn't want to give our S false hope, he said yes! Then he asked "do you want to give him that?" Just last week he was telling me he loved me and wanted our M to work and now he's pulling this crap on me. What kind of idiot am I that I keep letting him hurt me over and over? Your so right T2 when you say it's always all about THEM! Who hurt who here? Who cheated on who? I'm giving this my all, and he just pulls away acting like he really doesn't care if he's with me or not. How can he know one night he loves me and says he just wants me and our M and then now when I ask him if he wants to be with me he says SOMETIMES! Oh, well thank you so much, I just love to be wanted somtimes, and treated good whenever he feels like it. Loved one day and distance the next. I just want to leave him alone to decide what he wants but I've tried that so many times and it never helps. We just start getting close again, and then he starts to pull away. What kind of idiot am I to keep going back for more of this? Who knows what he's thinking? It makes me want answers- NOW!I'm tired of this crap, and me acting like I want him with him taking whatever I give him and getting very little back in return. Geeez, You either know you love someone or you don't! What am I suppose to do, take crumbs from him the rest of my life, and never get a real commitment from him??? Sometimes I just want to end it all thinking this grief is just not worth it. What makes me keep trying?? I need my head examined-who puts up with this???? Rachael
Quote: I'm so mad and frustrated with my H. He says he doesn't want to spend the night here at the house, and I asked him if it was because he didn't want to give our S false hope, he said yes! Then he asked "do you want to give him that?" Just last week he was telling me he loved me and wanted our M to work and now he's pulling this crap on me.
rmc,
try not to get too angry with h for this reasoning...my h used the same reasoning for at first only comming over on the nights he would normally be visiting son anyway so as not to confuse him. Try to look at it in a positive light...he's being catious and is concerned for others feelings.
Believe ME, you're H doesn't know what he wants from one minute to the next...not from YOU, not from Himself, NO ONE.
HE is on his own little hellish nightmare of a roller coaster, and he can't jump off either.
You asked what kind of idiot you were....YOU'RE MY kind of idiot, and Kitti's and Deb's and LL's and Tal's and Sage's etc etc etc.....WE are loving idiots and that's who we'll always be...And that AIN'T such a bad thing to be.
You just have to be patient....you know, the opposite of what I am.
You love him, you'll make it, but it hurts, it really really sucks....but YOU are in control of whether you make it or not.
Don't be crazy like me....be determined and stick to YOUR GOAL.
Hugs 2U
T2
T2, Kitti just said my H was an idiot today! I thought it was funnier than heck! That girl is a riot! What have you been up to? Bet my H remembers that little rub on the leg Tuesday night! That is a 180 according to the last yr. but that is how I use to be. Sorry I love being a tease! I'm such an ornery little gal! I'll be checking in on you! Deb Don't worry I straighten you out!
Quote: You asked what kind of idiot you were....YOU'RE MY kind of idiot, and Kitti's and Deb's and LL's and Tal's and Sage's etc etc etc.....WE are loving idiots and that's who we'll always be...And that AIN'T such a bad thing to be.
I'd like to start off our meeting tonight by introducing myself...
