I finally gritted my teeth and started organizing all our financial stuff, and realized I needed to take care of a few things, some of which I couldn't do til today. An issue with a credit card company that needs to be renegotiated, which they did after I explained the last year to them (medical illness) and worked out a way to stretch out the last three medical bills.
I just about have all our ducks in a row now. I'm also realizing this isn't as big of a monster as I make it my own mind. Recovering from depression is pretty helpful in that regard!! Six months ago I was still in a pit I think.
Okay, we had a huge sports weekend with S9 and birthday parties, and all kinds of stuff, so I just enjoyed the moment and doing things with H. We are cooking together, organizing the basement together. Together. Without fighting. Without criticism. Got rid of tons of stuff...I'm getting rid of tons of bills, I'm feeling like we are shedding the past.
I fell sick with a cruddy cold over the weekend too...
I've spent a lot of time praying and feeling released from a lot of old garbage. And the eternal anxiety and just feeling scared all the time is going away. I had a strange dream last night...I felt like it was a sign that everything is going to work out now. I got up and journaled for a while in the middle of the night.
Some other time I will try to journal here some of my personal growth that I feel like is making a big difference. Right now I feel like closing my eyes though!
