That does make sense for Elizabeth. Boy, my heart just breaks to have this drug through public. I know my sister when dying of a brain tumor was the most courageous selfless person I have ever known and that is why I will get through this, no matter what.
I just want to move out but I will still have to come back everyday for work so right now I am toughing it out. I do have a bag packed in case I just need to leave and daily that becomes more of an option.
Yes, there is so much to H's life that I don't know and any bit or piece I can pick up on just seem to make it worse. I was going back to my e-mails and I found in February an e-mail from a counselor when I was trying to get us to counseling. This has been going on far too long. It was pointed out today that I maybe spending too much time on wondering what is happening, why it is happening and trying to keep our marriage together because I will feel like a failure. The main thing is "what am I going to do", even if H stayed he is not well and has abused his husband privilges.
I wish you the best and for you to know how special you are for sharing and listening.
