Now it's my turn to vent! I'm so mad and frustrated with my H. He says he doesn't want to spend the night here at the house, and I asked him if it was because he didn't want to give our S false hope, he said yes! Then he asked "do you want to give him that?" Just last week he was telling me he loved me and wanted our M to work and now he's pulling this crap on me. What kind of idiot am I that I keep letting him hurt me over and over? Your so right T2 when you say it's always all about THEM! Who hurt who here? Who cheated on who? I'm giving this my all, and he just pulls away acting like he really doesn't care if he's with me or not. How can he know one night he loves me and says he just wants me and our M and then now when I ask him if he wants to be with me he says SOMETIMES! Oh, well thank you so much, I just love to be wanted somtimes, and treated good whenever he feels like it. Loved one day and distance the next. I just want to leave him alone to decide what he wants but I've tried that so many times and it never helps. We just start getting close again, and then he starts to pull away. What kind of idiot am I to keep going back for more of this? Who knows what he's thinking? It makes me want answers- NOW!I'm tired of this crap, and me acting like I want him with him taking whatever I give him and getting very little back in return. Geeez, You either know you love someone or you don't! What am I suppose to do, take crumbs from him the rest of my life, and never get a real commitment from him??? Sometimes I just want to end it all thinking this grief is just not worth it. What makes me keep trying?? I need my head examined-who puts up with this???? Rachael
