riding the big roller coaster...

[hopeinwaiting]

Thanks Steady, have to be true to my feelings - even when they change hourly

@CTH- thanks for the post. I need to look into some more info on the differences b/w men and women. I think I'm going to buy the 5 love languages.

Journaling: Had my coaching session on Friday night, went pretty well, but I since I'm pretty dark with H.. don't know how things can possibly changes unless OW is out of the picture. I will nevertheless do my homework and try and implement some of her recommendations. I went out dancing Saturday night and am having fun flirting with guys so that's good, I guess. It just scares me to have to enter the dating world maybe one day - but I guess I don't have to if I don't want to.

As far as H, he has called every night since I asked him why he wasn't calling to say goodnight to the girls. Even called my mom's on Saturday since I was out and the kids were with her.

I did a bad thing today and checked his bank account. He is negative $50. The man is not managing his resources very well. He doesn't get paid until the end of the month and now I'm worried that he may stop giving me money for his portion of the girls tuition. I'll try and let that go for now.

I asked H to switch nights with me this week so that I can go to a game night (he only sees the girls 1 x during the week). So, the next time I will see him is Wednesday... hmmm, need to dress nice that day and flirt with my guy friends some more.