Previously I felt I was being played. Now it feels more authentic. I have become the pro-active one pushing for our legal separation, which is the first step to divorce, and it has her questioning everything. I know she doesn't want to move back, but she doesn't want to lose me. I can't tolerate this limbo forever. If she was willing to totally give up OM, and tell me she wants me back, I'd be willing to discuss a new future for us, with us living separately for quite some time, then eventually a new house for us all to have a fresh start in. I think she'd be enthusiastic about that possibility, but I can't be the one to offer it. She has to take the first step. She keeps dropping little hints along those lines, but won't just come out take that step.
