Thanks LFA. I hope, I hope...

I blew it this morning, I grabbed her and hugged her. Every day, waking up without her just kills me. This was after I made breakfast for everyone, including her egg whites. And took them to her room. Stupid. I really need to detach.

She asked me in private if everything was OK, I said yeah, and she said, "I have moments too." She was bright about it, not disturbed or anything.