As I settled in, I had the feeling of being back where I belonged, of taking my rightful place. It wasn't an altogether positive feeling because I was so very cognizant of the several years of pain - for H, too - that led up to it. I mean, I wouldn't have needed to get 'back' there if I hadn't left in the first place. Regret, remorse, a tinge of guilt. Yes, I know it wasn't all my fault but I can't process his guilt or remorse, only my own.
Interesting that in victory, I did not feel particularly triumphant.
The trouble with having an open mind is that people put things in it.
My sitch - Divorce Busted! http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=1804137#Post1804137
