I don't know what I want. I do know that at a minimum, if I were going to treat him as a romantic prospect, I would want to know that he was out of his we are done no matter what phase and if we ML it's a "habit" or "mistake", or that I am like slumming for him when he's got so many prospects.
Back to already being dead. It is so hard to just let of of this boil under the surface and not take the lid off. But, even yesterday when he expressed his desire for us to reveal everything, I feared I was being set up because he just can't stand not knowing what I'm up to romantically. I'm not going to pour my guts out just to assuage his angst and satisfy his ego.
Frankly, I don't think if we ever did reconcile that I would even want to go there...just call it a long extended lost weekend.
how do I see that look on his face and get a sense that I am potentially missing my chance??? So silly. Mornings are tough. Take a shower. Take care of business. Go look at an apartment...whew...keep going.
