I just posted this in response to RMC's post on Shiny's thread...
As I reread what I'd posted over there, it struck me as a major revelation to myself.
I can't come to grips with the paradox I'm seeing in my life. I really DON'T agonize over the two OWs at all anymore...I agonize solely over wondering WHAT issues did my H feel justified his As...I'm still waiting for him to open up those feelings and share them with me. I feel like without that information I'm left to continue to go stumbling around in the dark trying to "fix" what I think was broken when in fact I may be way off the mark. If I'm living as though I assume he lost love for me because I didn't do his laundry every day, BUT he really lost love for me because I didn't make pot roast anymore (just a stupid hypethetical)(sp?) then HOW am I suppose to know what HE NEEDS if HE won't tell me?
The above is my biggest problem I think. At least as I see it at this moment...which can change in an hour...duh T2
