A Little Epiphany - (and a newbie delurking)

[Dia]

H is off to work, having given me access to the new game before he left. He was up til 3, so either he's blotto tired or he's in a bit of a pullback, or both. They'd all be understandable given the sitch.

I'll handle it lightly - be there if he wants/needs emotional support but genreally giving him space and letting him come to me.

Since the mini R-talk, he has been much freer with small signs of affection and future statements. It's very reassuring.

I did, however, have a whiff of WAWness as I settled into the master bed to read before I went to sleep. Since we didn't talk about any of my concerns in the R talk, they remain unacknowledged and unresolved. I am very willing to wait and be patient, but in the moment, they niggled a bit. In part, the niggle was due to being alone in the bed while H was on his computer and not knowing how soon he'd come to bed, how I would be treated when he did, etc. - very much a replay of the old tapes. There was a hint of feeling trapped in an R where everything has been labeled as "My Fault".

I acknowledged the feelings and let go of them. They're normal and they will pass. Patience. We'll get to my stuff eventually.