THank you = I'm ready to do this. I have to be very smart about my responses and stop acting from my feelings. I will do this. I literally have to practice my words like an actress.
Per your advice, when he got up this morning, he was quick to run out - and everything inside me shrank with feeling rejected and afraid. Instead, I said, "OK, see ya" and kept working on my computer. Good job, right? Why is it so hard? Why does it hurt so much?
Although inside, I'm getting more terrified of this legal separation. I know that if I don't give it to him, he'll react like I'm controlling, he'll pull back even more, and file a D,. If I do, I show trust, calmness, and like I have a life no matter what happens - but I'm agreeing to not sharing a life with him at all, which IS totally against my intuition.
Note - he still hasn't gotten the paperwork together to file. Have to show that it's inconsequential to me and my life.
