Exactly O'dog and the whole idea of them melting it down and sort of cleansing the metal by fire appealed to me too. Besides, its not like I could wear it anymore, so I just wanted it gone too.
Im just taking a break from studying for my physics test on tuesday. I hate not doing well, and this is a case where I just dont seem to be able to grasp the material. Its frustrating, and Im sure that H's visit didnt help me out as far as my ability to focus is concerned, but Im pretty determined to not let him ruin this for me.
Im thinking of retaking the CNA class so that I can sit for the licensure exam and get my license back, I had let it expire because the work made me miserable. But its a job, with benefits and I could do it over the winter and still work for FWS in the summer, so by doing something that I hate, it would allow me to still keep doing what I love in a strange sort of way. And I feel like I could afford to be a little more brave when it comes to a D. It really seems like a good decision, but when I think of going back to it, it doesnt make me feel very happy.
I guess I gave the wrong finger to the wrong man...
I'm both happy and sad to see where you are. I'm of course sad your M appears over. I'm happy you are no longer in limbo and you're moving on. I think all the work you've done this past year will pay off greatly. Your H, on the other hand, seems to be in much worse shape. To leave your M is one thing, but to be so wimpy and aimless about it is just sad.
Thank you for following my situation. Been almost a year for me now. I can't live in limbo forever either. I guess as long as I keep seeing movement I can keep holding on. If I ever reach the point of wanting to sell my wedding ring, I'll know I'm done too.
Future, I suppose that Im sad that my H couldnt pull it together. But Im glad that I tried so hard to save my M, I think that I would have some serious questions if I had given up when he did. I was sad for a little while, but Im ready to move on, to find new, exciting ways to live my life. He is being wimpy and aimless isnt he?!
I havent talked to him since he left. And I dont really mind. I read another post on here where a woman referred to her M as a "detail" so she could keep her insurance. I hope that I can get out of it before thats all it means to me. I still place a very high value on M and I dont think that it will ever not have a significant meaning to me.
I guess I gave the wrong finger to the wrong man...
Future, I suppose that Im sad that my H couldnt pull it together. But Im glad that I tried so hard to save my M, I think that I would have some serious questions if I had given up when he did. I was sad for a little while, but Im ready to move on, to find new, exciting ways to live my life. He is being wimpy and aimless isnt he?!
I havent talked to him since he left. And I dont really mind. I read another post on here where a woman referred to her M as a "detail" so she could keep her insurance. I hope that I can get out of it before thats all it means to me. I still place a very high value on M and I dont think that it will ever not have a significant meaning to me.
From my own experience, I think that trying as hard as we do allows us to move on with a sense of closure that we are never really given by the WAS who leaves for an affair.
I think you'll be able to move on and be happy for yourself no matter what happens. You can always keep your head held high and know you did what was right.
Nobody can take that from you.
"You can't reason someone out of a position they didn't reason themselves into."
Thanks DC, I agree with you, and I think that we have seen it play out that way on a lot of sitches on here. DBing was certainly a coping strategy for me!
I guess I gave the wrong finger to the wrong man...
Grr. I havent talked to H since he left then today, while I was at work, I got a text message from him saying "it worked". Totally out of the blue, I asked what worked, and he replied that he had just gotten a text from me that said "test message". I have been having some trouble with my cell phone and all I can think is that they sent it while they were working on my trouble ticket. Ruined my no contact! I thanked him for the reply and said that I would let my provider know.
It ticks me off because Ill bet he doesnt beleive that Im not the one who sent it, and I was just fishing for him to speak to me, which couldnt be farther from the truth!
I guess I gave the wrong finger to the wrong man...
ugh, Karen. I screwed up today! I had a job interview at 3:30, or so I thought! I wrote it down as 3:30, but I got there and they said that I should have been there at 3. Yuck, what a bad feeling. They did let me still interview, and I think that it went well... other than the whole half hour late thing!
I dont know how I messed that up, Im very organized, my time is pretty used up and I have to be really careful with how I budget it, Im pretty disappointed in myself!
But, Fish and Wildlife has a position opening in a week or two for a receptionist, right now Im working out of the receptionist desk, so I answer the phones, and everyone who comes in feels the need to tell me why they are there, so I am greeting people. So, even if I botched todays interview, I think that I might have a chance with this one, being a federal employee already, is in my favor too.
I think Im going to bed, its 830, but its windy and cold, and Im ready to crawl into bed and be finished with today!
I guess I gave the wrong finger to the wrong man...
Success is not letting a crisis break you, and using the opportunity to grow. Unforunately, growth many times comes from crisis and pain. It's how we meet that challenge that defines us as human beings.
In the end, it takes two people to decide to save a M.
