You are so right and continue to hit the nail on the head. The 'controlling' issue is becoming very apparent and no doubt has been a theme of our marriage. Feeling stupid but looking forward to change. H is consumed with making sure I stay at this job and H continually tells me that even though this is a package job for us that our employer would do anything to keep me here and would rework the job description so I could stay. H also is adamant that he will be bringing a few things with him when he goes, he doesn't plan any trailers/trucks, still just what he can take in a car. This may be a no-brainer moment for some but I am starting to believe he wants me to kind of hang around here and keep some of his stuff available in case this were not to work out for him. I know for sure he is not doing this for my benefit. I certainly may stay at present job if they will allow for a time (just because I don't think I can handle a new job and divorce stress at the same time); however, I do not intend to work/live here in the long term.
Of course, this continues to make no sense to me because all along I had indicated he should just go, separate, and find out what life would really be like before D, but he has absolutely refused that approach.
On the other hand, the drama of D talk this week sadly has in some ways me looking forward to the end, no matter what...I am exhausted and anxious to live!
Another note, saddened to read about John Edwards wife Elizabeth Edwards...and the hell she is going through publicly with stories about his OW. Why does she stay?
How are things going with you and your H? I hope you can have butterflies again...
Sorry all over the place today, my scattered mind cannot focus.
Thanks again for absolutely everything. Michele
M 42 H 41 M 16 yrs. Together 23 yrs. Bomb 5/16/09 D papers in progress
