Sorry about the blank post-PC problems. Why oh why can't I seem to get this?? I need to print your goals up and reread them about a thousand times day-no kidding! It's just so hard to keep quiet when I've got it figured in my pea sized brain, that he has been with/had contact with the OW. Intellectually, I believe him when he tells me there is no chance of it ever happening again. SO.....why was I so compelled to ask him if he had seen or talked OW today? He'd been out of town all day on a jobsite. Well ok right? No! I kept fantasizing he was really with her and had concocted his whole story. When I asked him,he was surprised. He asked me if that's what I thought-that he was with her. How do you answer that? I answered as honestly as I could. We had another R talk-kinda. He was very tired and ready to go to sleep, so I just let him. We actually talked though! (for awhile!) Him,about his fears, and me about mine. We figured out our goals were the same. We went along time without having any R talks, and it was time. Now I just have to strike a balance, and live by T2's goals which were by the way, well atticulated, and I could tell she put alot of thought into them. You see my perception that my H was somewhat distant tonight confirmed my suspicion that he had contact with OW. Why do we do this to ourselves?? He was understnading ,but it will get old. I know I need to stop assuming. I told him the biggest part of me trusts him-but that little part comes in and takes over. My evil twin! I've worked and waited this long for him,I'm not going to throw it to the wind now! I'm too tired to write anymore, and I've been rattling on T2's thread. Night all....Rachael
