I am sorry to hear about the death of your co worker, but can also understand exactly where you are. My brother passed away in April, and that was it for me too. Life is too short.

However, it seems like there is some positive that is coming out of this for you. Don't get overly excited, and raise your expectations. Just take it for what it is.

I have not told my stbx that I love him in a long time. As a matter of fact, I have spoken to him once in the past six months, and I am okay with that. Doesn't mean I don't still love him, because I do. I have just accepted I always will, and although I don't think we will get through this, I am okay with that too.

Saying I love you is just a bunch of pretty words. Showing it is an entirely different story. I am not talking with hugs and kisses, and stuff like that. Sometimes the greatest gift of love is letting a person go just to find themselves, so that they can potentially return.

Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..