Today is a funny day really, I keep remembering his txt and a smile comes upon my face, the last bit was "I would have txt you yesterday but I got roped into firing (steam train)you know what they are like!" ohh and a x, my sassy reply was "glad you got all fired up" and returned the x. Also every time I make the bed fond thoughts of the friday night, we actually havent slept in the same bed for over six months Im still in the keep pinching myself phase, so need to keep perspective.
The sadness part is that today we would have been together for twenty nine years and I expect it wont even occur to him and it highly unlikely it will get recognised either, but friday was so special perhaps I should consider we celebrated it then!
Friday was unreal! He had changed so much, he is so slim now, and he enjoys wearing his clothes and buying them! He teased me about spending his money on new underwear and my retort was "although it could be useful at times for your knickers to fall down, its not always conveniant" He talked about his two courses he has booked, the italian course is actually for february, he wanted to do it now but missed out so booked for the next session, and is doing a course in photography, my heart sank a bit, not so much that it was booked for next year but more that the realisation of how much he wasnt planning on coming back in the beginning when he left!
It felt like I was on a date with my H and maybe thats were we need to start, but obviously you cant date indefinitely so Im a little nervous of a "cake eating" scenario happening, although its not a quality H would have had before, but then who wouldnt want to spend time with an attractive sexy wife, getting their needs fufilled then back off to do their own thing all week, and we are so not going there lol!
Scary things are that his contract has only a couple of weeks to run then neither of us have a job! Again shows how desperate he must have felt, signing a lease not knowing if he could pay it two months in! I know that some of this compassion for him will come into play sooner or later, and reading Dia's thread this morning I can see how hard its going to be to absorb, maybe even for both of us!
Anyway Im going to hold a few of H's sentances in my heart and get on with the week ahead, he is working a few evenings pulling the last of his project together so he can be allowed to be distracted, although that will make contact all the sweeter if he finds time to call!
One very happy Rabbit, trying to keep smugness under control (wink wink)
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W 47 H 47 M 24 T 30
Once lost but now found and happily married again!
Im still in the keep pinching myself phase, so need to keep perspective.
