Who is this person?

[Day by Day]

Oh duh, I didn't see it that way... you saw that so clearly. Yeah, staying with his sis and mom would feed the before wife and kids fantasy. He is running away from responsibility even at work. He's been taking days off which he rarely did before. He was such a responsible and dependable person before this.

I'm running two of the same local races he is actually. I want to prove to myself that I can finish a full marathon while I'm still 40. I had it as a goal for my 40th birthday. I'm not hoping to see him in those races. I'd rather not. If we were together again I would. This is for me. I'm not hoping to impress him with it... I wouldn't anyway. I'm not nearly as fast as he is. But I don't care. I have a great support group of running friends that I want to share the accomplishment with.

Yes... I will focus on it... I am trying to find myself and make the changes for me. Yes... I feeling I'm getting there. Hmm... needing his pat on my head. Yes, I now see that I was hoping for it. Wow, thanks for helping see a bit clearer.