Still getting nowhere fast....

[lost-n-Iowa]

We have not been able to see the MC for a little bit cuz the MC has been out of town. I hope that we can make it for the next appt. which is next Monday.

I am doing ok. I have seen changes within my H that I do like but I don't know if it is enough. He has stop doing the sex addiction stuff. Even got rid of his dirty mags when he didn't think I was watching.

But we are fighting over everything now. We fight over money the most. I am so sick of the money issue. We fight over the kids all the time now. We fight over what project needs to be done around the house. We fight over everything.

Great, the sex addiction issue has changed and he is not doing the things that he was doing. (The online porn, texting other women, watching porn, or looking at dirty mags) But now he is constantly talking about his fantasies that he wants me to fulfill.

Here's one for you. To get him to help pay for a trampoline for the kids a couple of christmases ago, I had to agree to have sex with him on it. I said fine, whatever. Then he filed for a D, then we got back together and things weren't the best, then I filed for a D cuz I found out what he was doing, then we get back together. Well now all I hear is I didn't fulfill my end of the deal. I have gotten so sick of listening to it, that I finally had to break down and do it. Well guess what, It sucked!!! It was cold out, the dogs were barking and wrestling, plus one of them bump it's nose on my butt from under the trampoline, (LOL, it was kinda funny though) and it was not at all fun to me to have had to do this. BUT H is happy that I did what he wanted. So very glad that he got what he wanted!!!! Think it's over??? Hell No...

Now he has a fantasy about me in 4 inch heels. I guess I can be thankful that he is not going after other women but this fantasy thing is not the greatest either. Espeacially when we are fighting over everything. Who wants to have sex when there is a constant battle going on? Not me.

Sorry just venting here.