Feeling so sad right now and literally sick to my stomach with thoughts of what H might have been doing in his hotel room in Chicago. I'm married to man who thinks only of himself. Has lost his morals and values. A man who puts his rotten self before his daugther. A man who is turning into posion in my life.
Why am I here? Why am I still fighting? Why have I allowed this behavior to continue for nearly a year? Why would I still want this to work after EVERYTHING? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? I DESERVE BETTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Me: 34 H: 34 DD: 3 M: 8 yrs H moved out Oct. 2008, "not happy" "don't know what I want" "will always love you, but not in love with you" PA Bomb: April 5, 2010
